Addict's Recovery Desire

It's an addict's desire to get one more fix and to not get caught getting it. No matter how stupid it may seem to the normal person, the addict is embarrassed by what they do. The will go to extremes to hide it, make up excuses, and maybe isolate themselves from the world. I understand this. I just found a numerous amount of bottles I had hidden around the house. I think I got them all but it makes me so angry at myself that I did that. No wonder I have lost everyone's trust as well as my own. I just have learned that when you are at the beginning of recovery you are going to discover things about yourself that you didn't even know. But it is what you do with it is what is vitally important! I may become weak at times but I need to make sure that I am honest to myself as well as others about these times. Seeking out help from others to get you through, praying to your Higher Power for His guidance and strength, and realizing you truly are not on your own. Recovery is possible if we do what it takes to stand strong, fight these demons, resist temptation, admit when we are wrong, strive to improve our life, right our wrongs, hand it over to the One who can and will give us this strength, power, and determination, and admit we are only human. Just remember that there will be times you will falter and take a few steps back, but with any mistake, it is how you handle it and correct it that makes you a stronger person. An addict's desire, no matter what the drug of choice is, is to be clean, sober, admired, trusted, respected, and most importantly loved!